Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Here Comes Happily Ever After...

The pursuit of happiness.

Four years ago I was sitting in a bar with some amazing friends who had kidnapped me because my roller coaster of a relationship had ended -- more like crash landed with a really loud thud...a Die Hard kind of explosion. I was fading into a peaceful oblivion, silently swearing off relationships and saying to myself "This is my year to be alone--to figure it out."

Suddenly, in walked the woman who would become the love of my life and show me that everything I thought I knew about love was only a mere fraction of the story we would write together.

Our circle of friends came together that night, though neither of us had intended to be there. Looking back, I can see that there was a much bigger purpose.

A greater force was at play.
Stars aligned.
It was serendipitous.

She was smart, witty, funny, flirty...and openly gay -- huge bonus. We didn't exchange numbers but there was something about this girl.  As I watched her walk away at the end of the night, I honestly thought I would never see her again.  But the possibility of how a relationship could be stayed with me. The best conversation of my life began that night...and it never stopped.

From the very beginning, we were different. We'd both been through the relationship nightmare(s) and were determined to not take for granted that one little gift that every relationship begins We were better partners than we'd ever been before. Better friends. With more understanding. More patience. More of everything. We encountered so many obstacles, from exes who randomly drunk texted or showed up, to friends we lost along the way because they were more interested in the sadder version of who we once were. But with the bad came an enormous amount of good in the form of unwavering support from family and friends who could see that we were genuinely happy.

For the first time in my life, I was thinking about marriage--an idea I had let go of a long time ago not only because it wasn't legal for same sex couples, but because I never had the desire to be married. With more than 60% ending in divorce, it's easy to just say people are crazy for trying.  But I get it now...and I have since the first time I said "I love you."  My good friend Beth would say "To love someone is to risk knowing what it is like to be them." I honestly can't say it any better than that.

It's hard to plan a proposal that lives up to how special you want the most special person in your entire world to feel.  It took months of planning and thankfully, it all came together perfectly.  So this is for the friends and family that have been there with us along the way, many of whom have asked, "'d you ask?"


I solicited the help of our good friends, Ashlee and Katie, to pick Amanda up.  I was "running late" and going to meet them at brunch.  When she got into the car, they gave her a gift -- a popup book I made for her about our relationship...(see video).

(If the video comes in blurry, let it play to :15 seconds and then restart it. It will load a little clearer the next time you play it. You can also enlarge the view in the bottom right corner of the video player.)

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While Amanda read the book, Katie and Ashlee drove her to meet me at a gallery nearby.  When she arrived, there was a window display that featured some favorite moments of our very first conversations back and forth to each other...the beginning of our love story.
(I love this picture because you can see the reflection of my accomplices capturing her reaction for me. Thanks Ash!)
(More photos from my accomplices)
As she entered, there was music playing overhead. I made a playlist for her called "Marry Me" that had been on my iPhone for months.  The nights leading up to the proposal I spent listening to it...annoyingly so to Amanda who had no idea why I suddenly liked listening to my headphones while the TV was on.  But I just wanted to make sure it would play without a hitch.

There were stations set up with candles that guided her along a path.  Each had a note from me and something relevant to that note.
Stop #1: Our very first Christmas, we made nearly the exact same gift for each other.  I made her a typography book and she gave me a scrapbook of our conversations / emails / notes which were more like "top 10" lists back and forth to each other.
Stop #2: This was one of my favorites.  Friends and family sent in advice on love, friendship and marriage.  They said things like:

"Marriage is like a never-ending slumber party with your best friend."
"Happiness is a loving 50/50 relationship with your soul mate. (giggle) Okay, how about 60/40?"
"The secret to a happy marriage is separate bathrooms."  
Who couldn't agree with that?
Stop #3: Amanda writes me letters.  These were a few of my favorites from our very first month of dating to our 3 year anniversary.  I wanted her to read them so she could remember how she felt and reflect on how far we've come.
Stop #4:  Cards I've drawn for her.  Everything from our first fight (which wasn't really a fight) to stick figures that say things like "If we dated in the 80s, I would totally pull a Lloyd Dobbler in your driveway." (Say Anything reference)  

She didn't read all of was just another reminder. I wanted her to know how much I love dating her and made a promise to always up my woo game with little reminders of how ooey gooey I feel about her. 
Stop #5:  Our weird little happy family and things that have meaning to us.
Stop #6:  A quote from Dolly Parton, "If you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain."  

Dolly holds a special place in Amanda's heart for many reasons.  We've only had two "some day" wishes.  One was to move west and get married (legally) and the other was to have Amanda's favorite artist, Jota Leal, commission a Dolly painting for us.  We're big art lovers and this was truly the ultimate "some day" piece.  

The last note told Amanda to turn the corner.  When she did, she found me standing in front of the Dolly painting that Jota painted...just for her.
(Jota Leal with our finished Dolly Parton commission)
I love this pic of Amanda looking at the painting after the proposal.
It's hard to explain the amazing lighting in this space, but it was one reason I chose it. The skylights open and close with cool old cranks. Only one was open that day shining perfectly down. 
What followed?  A lot of tears, a beautiful exchange of words, laughing, ugly crying, and of course the ultimate question on bended knee, "Will you marry me?"  Followed by a choked up "Yes!"  It was a day and a moment I will never forget, asking the girl of my dreams to marry me.  And now, we're on to the next fun part -- wedding planning.  

So to the friends and family that have supported us along the way, words can't express how much you mean to us.  Thank you for being part of our happily ever after.  This is only the beginning...


P.S. to my girlfriend -- scratch that, my fiancé: you can no longer sing "if you like it then you shouldaputaringonit!" but I will truly miss the cute dance and hand wagging that always accompanied those infamous Beyonce lyrics :)


Jota Leal and James Cowan of Morpheus Fine Art ( and for conspiring with me on the Dolly painting and delivering something that surpassed our expectations.

Ashlee & Katie for letting me steal part of your Sunday and for being really great sports about it!  We love you guys!

As another surprise for Amanda, I had our dog sitter and her friend (both amazing singers) record our 2 favorite songs.  Download their song covers with these links:
Heavenly Day Cover: CLICK HERE
Somewhere Over the Rainbow Cover: CLICK HERE

Kelly & Mindi - amazing friends who made me go out with them on the evening that Amanda and I met.  Sometimes, your friends really do know what's best for you :)

Friends & Family near and far away: being in Seattle is tough because we no longer have the luxury of being close in proximity to celebrate when we have good news...but we're thinking of you and loving you from afar.

Our parents: for your unconditional love, support and blessing. Thank you for loving us without question.

Aaron Draplin and the Field Notes Crew:  I could be wrong, but I think I may have just launched the world's first pop up proposal book and wouldn't have done it with anything but my favorite FIELD NOTES ( and

Sara Bareilles: Credit for the song in the video.  It is one of our favorites from her new album, The Blessed Unrest, called "I Choose You." ( or

Sharpie: Oh, how I love your Ultra Fine Point Marker.  I use them for...well, everything.

Lucca Great Finds: Amazing paper and where I buy FIELD NOTES locally.  I also bought the cool time capsule, and the 4 year sparkler there.  The staff was awesome on the phone and even more helpful in the store. (

Marriage Equality: To the 16 states that have legalized same sex marriage, and those who will hopefully follow, thanks for believing that #loveislove

"And even better...I get to be the other half of you."
Love that line from our Sara Bareilles song -- it pretty much sums up how I feel.
I am beyond excited to marry this beautiful woman. Lucky me!


Rachelle Marshall said...

I did the ugly cry all through this post!!! To say I'm happy for u guys is an understatement. Two people could not have been more perfect. Thanks for writing it all down so we could share in its awesomeness! Love you both!

Chris Lewman said...

Haha! You're sweet :) Love you too...and so excited to spend some time with the Marshalls next week!!

Olo! I'm Gina said...

I second that...thank you for sharing such a beautiful moment in your lives with you guys. We can't wait to celebrate your next step with you. I can only imagine how many ugly cries that will produce as well!! We love you...Gyna

Chris Lewman said...

Thanks Gigi! I was just telling Amanda that I hardly made it through the idea how I'm going to get through the actual ceremony. Can't wait to share that day with you :)

Anonymous said...

Great proposal! One of the best I've ever seen!

Dan Long said...

Congrats Sis, soooo happy for both of you, and such a beautiful proposal. Wishin you many years of loving poetic times ahead, and may your souls be connected for eternity. You used the term lucky for your relational situation, and I would lean towards "deserving" on both ends. I'm so jealous, as would be most couples these days, so cherish that amazing bond forever. May your life be filled with bliss while you live out your hopes and dreams as a happily married couple, this is just the beginning for you 2 love birds. We've been dear friends for nearly 20 years now, and I couldn't have asked for a better best pal whom I adore so much, always here for you when needed. Your spirits have aligned, now let them soar together as one pure heavenly flow, til the end of time. Can't wait to join in celebration, going to be a blast. Much Love and Many Blessings, DL (Bro)

stephanielozano37 said...

Damn it Amanda- you sent me this link at work, where i cant do the ugly girl cry in the office. This is the most amazing proposal i have ever seen. Amanda you truly deserve the world, you're so amazing, and even though i don't know Chris- I know she is equally amazing. so happy for the both of you- i cant even explain!

PS- even though I'm straight, can cha-chi and i be your guys' sister wife?? i heart you so much!
-Stephanie Lozano
(aka the coolest person at Amazon you know)

Jaime Lyon said...

Love this proposal! Love your creativity and thoughtfulness! Love you both! Congrats. Your life will be full of adventure and joy. So happy for guy. Merry Christmas! Xoxo Jaimers

Jaime Lyon said...

Oops I meant "for you guys!"

Anonymous said...

Chris, Had lunch with Montira today and she told me about your beautiful proposal and I asked her to forward me the link. Wow girl, you out did yourself but I would expect nothing less from such a creative person!! So happy for you both and hope for you years and years of happy bliss!
Julie K(Your UMKC EMBA buddy

Jacque said...

Of course you planned the most amazing proposal! That's so awesome. I love it, I miss you, and I'm thankful for your fiance and your Living Out Loud.